I totaly got a ne3w lj... again


the new one is webbedtoe

and you should add it.

I just looked at something I used to love, and saw a horrible, horrible hatred and ugliness there.
It hurt, more than anything in a long time, but I know what I have to do, and that's something. That's a big something.

What'll I do
when you
are far away
and I am blue
what'll I do?

I was going to post about how much everything is sucking for me, and be all liberated and such, but, two lines in I was all "well, i don't think writing in my livejournal has ever actually made me feel better."

Italy was to much to write about. The rest of my life has been really, realy not fun.

So instead of filling in the people who read this on my feelings, here is something Iwrote for English awhile ago:

The Spy:
A Collection of Poems by Patriot Charlotte Greene

PROEM
It was not till then
That I knew fear. In him
Was conspiracy.

SONNET I: THE BEARD
While stopping in a coffee shop,
My eyes fell on a man. His face was pale and his beard was red.
He seemed at first quite innocent, but I took the time to stop
And look, and see, that he was thing that we all dread.
His beard was not the only thing,
It soon came clear to me, that was tainted cremesino,
For o’er in the corner of the café din, I could clearly hear the ring
Of “L’International.” The Paper that was in front of him must have been the manifesto.
Sitting peacefully in front of us, just as me or you (to the untrained eye),
Penning secrets for the mother country,
Is he who would have mars ruling our free, blue sky
And Stalin’s hand in every sweet, free mother’s pantry.
All around us, in every shop, office, school and park,
Is the vast and curl’d beard of Karl Marx.

THE LETTERS
O’er my shoulder,
I saw a furtive keystroke.
He did not see me.

SONNET II: THE DOCUMENTS
From the lion’s den, I record the actions of this man.
Just now, I saw him turn a page, his notes scratched illegibly,
He types, I know, of the whispers from the river Rio Gran’.
He must have conspirators, this information wasn’t free.
I bear my duty with mounting fear,
But this man I must report. He may look like harmless in his tweed,
(For the innocents witnessing this crime, I must shed a nostalgic tear)
But his domestic appearances were designed to mislead.
He mails the final document; his face remains quite taciturn,
And the stealthy man crumbles his papers in weather’d hands.
The details of his plans I need to learn,
But how? The evidence vanishes into his bag, like messages in the ancient sands.
The wind battles, bristling with new chill, in the trees
As this agent packs and leaves.

Current Music: Rufus Wainwright - Oh What a World

I've been having hours of frees a day. I've been reading poems. I've been do it's my math homework. It's lovely. Really.

I was really anxious this afternoon. I snapped at people. It wasn't nice. Mostly I was extremely nervous about Common Sounds. I found out the cafeteria was in use when we had planned to have our auditions. The sucked. We were able to book for the 3oth, so everything is going to be ok. Thank god. We also got our announcement and final poster finalized AND we finally have a schedule. ALSO we have finally got our day of silence stuff, including shirts, in order. And we have a schedule for everything at long last. Even after all of that organization I was still pretty freaked out.

My walk helped immensely and I'm feeling much better, thank you.

The radio show went swimmingly, as usual, even though we failed at fading two swears. OH dear! No one important heard, but we did have at least one listener.

Eric and I also did a dramatic reading of act one scene one of Macbeth on air. GT's GT's.

Anyway, aside from starting to get sick again (BALLS!), I've been reading poetry and I've started exercising again.

I'm very excited about my next photo project.

History has been JUST SWELL, THANKS!

-Charlotte

Current Mood: content
Current Music: Beck - No Complaints

This weekend = GREAT SUCCESS!

Eeeven though it's not over.

I woke up at my own pace, read poetry, ate gingerbread waffles with nuts and apple, went cross country skiing (lots of fun, lots of bruising) and HAD A PARTY WITH ECHO OH MY GOD!

Tomorrow is homework and cleaning.

But also yoga. Yaaay!

yaaaay


(yay)


THEN I HEARD THE NEW DINOSAUR JR SONG ON THE RADIO AND IT WAS SO GOOD! AAAH!

-Charlotte

(Ps, Casino Royal sets a whole new standard for Bond movies)

Current Mood: good
Current Music: What Became of the Likely Lads - The Libertines

I did my math homework and watched Ugly Betty today.
Not only that! I also finished a series of four poems (two haikus, two sonnets) about soviet spies and beards for my English class.

Also!
THE MAJORITY OF MY PICTURES CAME OUT! I feel very proud, as it was my first roll ever. Joy of joys.

It's been a pretty bitchin' week all and all. I've enjoyed it immensely. Even though I want to make my contact sheet, I would like a snow day more. I have Leaves of Grass, and while Walt Whitman is not as attractive as some poets, I like him a lot. Snowy poetry day would be really great.

But Kaila is bringing me the new Dinosaur Jr CD tomorrow... hmm.

What do I want from this world?






Luvuluvu!Charrotte!!!!!!

Current Mood: artistic
Current Music: Violent Femmes - Kiss Off

Today was really lovely.

School wasn't anything out of the ordinary, but I think the AMAZING weather just made everyone more pleasant in general. It sure made me feel a lot better about everything.

I am having trouble with my film. It just won't get on that stupid thing. Mr. Martin is saving me. Thank you. (The technical parts of photo are hard for me, as I predicted. I'll get there.)

The radio show really made my day. It was perfect. I think Eric and I are very good at transitioning between song and talk and so forth. We run a pretty tight program. Oh yeah. We played a wonderful variety of wonderful music and read poetry, which was really fun. Kaila visted! I like her a lot.

After that, Eric and I decided to go to Starbucks, and while climbing over a snow bank I found five dollars. Because our drinks and cupcakes came to 4.81 I made a profit. Yes.

Wait.

We got some thing for free. The cup cakes alone were at least 4 dollars. Thanks barista who I know from the past (I think it's spelled Razi)! You are the greatest ever!

-Charlotte

P.S We also picked up Eric's dog on the side of the road and talked about taking a road trip (not seriously).

P.S.S I like friendship.

Current Mood: yaaaay

Ok, so on Friday I might have chopped of most of my hair with dull scissors and after blotchily dieing it kind of red kid of pink.
It's uneven and the color varied from COLOR! to still dark brown. Not the smartest thing I've ever done. By a long shot. But! I don't really care because, after all it's just hair. It grows back in new and exciting ways. My mother was pretty pissed (I did it with out consent, pretty late at night) but, I am grateful to any and all higher powers to say, they are getting used to it and there is peace. Peeaaace.

I saw 300 yesterday with Reid and Soup. It was very7, very entertaining. Also strangely empowering. I now have a newfound desire to sculpt my body it to awesome firmness and KICK MAJOR ASS and um... kicking major ass. Also stabbing the guy who calls you a total slut was pretty girl power. The whole theater applauded. Which made it better.

Driving there, I swear I was a (large and in charge) cow statue in a set of someone’s windows. The night was filled with much hilarity, and a chance meeting with Caroline, and a sudden switch from Spartans to the notebook. It was a beautiful night, but too much to recount.

In the news of today and school, I plan to bring up that our book never goes over what this great, ominous evil of communism is and teaching at least the basics of it would be a great benefit to or learning experience AND I love my English essay so far, though I’m probably going to get a bad grade. I DONT CARE! I like it that's (what I keep telling myself) what's important. Also, I shot my first roll of film (!!!!) I can't wait to see my pictures. I think most of them won't come out. But as long as I get one, I'm happy. I also have great ideas for some class free rayographs.

The end!

Charlotte

(Did I mention that I'm feeling better than I have in a long time?)

Current Location: My Lovely Home
Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: Pagode - Enredo dos Tempos Do Medo -Tom Ze

IT'S THE LAST DAY OF FEBUARY! YES!

Dear February,
You are the worst month ever. Not just this year. Nope. Always. You basically suck. I mean that. Worst month ever. I mean, the weather sucks, tons of people getting sick, there is suffocating angst over Valentine's Day EVERYWHERE... and the weather is terrible. I am glad you are over.
-Charlotte

Dear Sick,
You cost me my job, really fucked me over in school, and have prevented me from going to the gym for over a month now. I would like it if you would just get out of my life, already and let me get healthy again.
Thanks,
Charlotte


Dear March,
I'm pretty glad it's going to be a new month tomorrow. I'm really trying to get my life back on track. I'm GOING TO GET ALL OF MY WORK DONE! Even if that means loosing large amounts of sleep. I straightened out my papers and I'm feeling a bit more confident that I can get back on track after talking to my counselor. It turns out that they are very helpful. I recommend them. I have decided not to go to traditional college. I know for a fact I would be miserable, and would drop out within a year. I've decided to pursue the culinary arts instead by attending a culinary institute, majoring, of course, in cooking, as well as restaurant management. I might go into pastry.... but I don't know. Cooking is just the kind of work I can actually see myself doing with out getting fired quickly / killing myself. I really angry at my school's attitude towards choosing vocational paths. It would be really stupid for me as an individual to go to a regular college, and not because I'm stupid. At all. Boo. What ever. Getting this school thing to work at all for the rest of the year is going to be really hard on me. In more ways than one. What a mess. I'm kind of getting off to a... decent start. Sort of. I'm set for PCR day any way.

My other new month resolution is to get healthy. I'm Just going to take care of myself better.

Common Ground's today was super good. It was just awesome. Truly. To the core. We planned or presentation on preventing anti-lgtb language and violence. We were all so productive. It's going to be great. Really. I'm a little nervous about getting up in front of not only my teachers but... all of them and talking about "the gay." It really is hard to stand up and push for change, but I'll have Katherine and Echo with me, so it's all cool.

Please be gentle with me, March.

-Charlotte

Current Music: Blur - End of the Century