lightning_tooth

HEY GUESS WHAT

2007-12-17T03:35:04Z

I totaly got a ne3w lj... again

the new one is webbedtoe

and you should add it.

lightning_tooth @ 2007-11-17T02:45:00

2007-11-17T07:53:52Z

I just looked at something I used to love, and saw a horrible, horrible hatred and ugliness there.
It hurt, more than anything in a long time, but I know what I have to do, and that's something. That's a big something.

What'll I do
when you
are far away
and I am blue
what'll I do?

lightning_tooth @ 2007-06-07T22:24:00

2007-06-08T02:27:43Z

I was going to post about how much everything is sucking for me, and be all liberated and such, but, two lines in I was all "well, i don't think writing in my livejournal has ever actually made me feel better."

I Haven't Posted in Forever.

2007-05-12T03:05:15Z

Italy was to much to write about. The rest of my life has been really, realy not fun.

So instead of filling in the people who read this on my feelings, here is something Iwrote for English awhile ago:

The Spy:
A Collection of Poems by Patriot Charlotte Greene

PROEM
It was not till then
That I knew fear. In him
Was conspiracy.

SONNET I: THE BEARD
While stopping in a coffee shop,
My eyes fell on a man. His face was pale and his beard was red.
He seemed at first quite innocent, but I took the time to stop
And look, and see, that he was thing that we all dread.
His beard was not the only thing,
It soon came clear to me, that was tainted cremesino,
For o’er in the corner of the café din, I could clearly hear the ring
Of “L’International.” The Paper that was in front of him must have been the manifesto.
Sitting peacefully in front of us, just as me or you (to the untrained eye),
Penning secrets for the mother country,
Is he who would have mars ruling our free, blue sky
And Stalin’s hand in every sweet, free mother’s pantry.
All around us, in every shop, office, school and park,
Is the vast and curl’d beard of Karl Marx.

THE LETTERS
O’er my shoulder,
I saw a furtive keystroke.
He did not see me.

SONNET II: THE DOCUMENTS
From the lion’s den, I record the actions of this man.
Just now, I saw him turn a page, his notes scratched illegibly,
He types, I know, of the whispers from the river Rio Gran’.
He must have conspirators, this information wasn’t free.
I bear my duty with mounting fear,
But this man I must report. He may look like harmless in his tweed,
(For the innocents witnessing this crime, I must shed a nostalgic tear)
But his domestic appearances were designed to mislead.
He mails the final document; his face remains quite taciturn,
And the stealthy man crumbles his papers in weather’d hands.
The details of his plans I need to learn,
But how? The evidence vanishes into his bag, like messages in the ancient sands.
The wind battles, bristling with new chill, in the trees
As this agent packs and leaves.

MCAS week rocks when your not being tested

2007-03-21T21:20:14Z

I've been having hours of frees a day. I've been reading poems. I've been do it's my math homework. It's lovely. Really.

I was really anxious this afternoon. I snapped at people. It wasn't nice. Mostly I was extremely nervous about Common Sounds. I found out the cafeteria was in use when we had planned to have our auditions. The sucked. We were able to book for the 3oth, so everything is going to be ok. Thank god. We also got our announcement and final poster finalized AND we finally have a schedule. ALSO we have finally got our day of silence stuff, including shirts, in order. And we have a schedule for everything at long last. Even after all of that organization I was still pretty freaked out.

My walk helped immensely and I'm feeling much better, thank you.

The radio show went swimmingly, as usual, even though we failed at fading two swears. OH dear! No one important heard, but we did have at least one listener.

Eric and I also did a dramatic reading of act one scene one of Macbeth on air. GT's GT's.

Anyway, aside from starting to get sick again (BALLS!), I've been reading poetry and I've started exercising again.

I'm very excited about my next photo project.

History has been JUST SWELL, THANKS!

-Charlotte

:D

2007-03-18T03:45:20Z

This weekend = GREAT SUCCESS!

Eeeven though it's not over.

I woke up at my own pace, read poetry, ate gingerbread waffles with nuts and apple, went cross country skiing (lots of fun, lots of bruising) and HAD A PARTY WITH ECHO OH MY GOD!

Tomorrow is homework and cleaning.

But also yoga. Yaaay!

yaaaay

(yay)

THEN I HEARD THE NEW DINOSAUR JR SONG ON THE RADIO AND IT WAS SO GOOD! AAAH!

-Charlotte

(Ps, Casino Royal sets a whole new standard for Bond movies)

Yaaayy

2007-03-16T02:48:29Z

I did my math homework and watched Ugly Betty today.
Not only that! I also finished a series of four poems (two haikus, two sonnets) about soviet spies and beards for my English class.

Also!
THE MAJORITY OF MY PICTURES CAME OUT! I feel very proud, as it was my first roll ever. Joy of joys.

It's been a pretty bitchin' week all and all. I've enjoyed it immensely. Even though I want to make my contact sheet, I would like a snow day more. I have Leaves of Grass, and while Walt Whitman is not as attractive as some poets, I like him a lot. Snowy poetry day would be really great.

But Kaila is bringing me the new Dinosaur Jr CD tomorrow... hmm.

What do I want from this world?

Luvuluvu!Charrotte!!!!!!

Good.

2007-03-14T00:23:38Z

Today was really lovely.

School wasn't anything out of the ordinary, but I think the AMAZING weather just made everyone more pleasant in general. It sure made me feel a lot better about everything.

I am having trouble with my film. It just won't get on that stupid thing. Mr. Martin is saving me. Thank you. (The technical parts of photo are hard for me, as I predicted. I'll get there.)

The radio show really made my day. It was perfect. I think Eric and I are very good at transitioning between song and talk and so forth. We run a pretty tight program. Oh yeah. We played a wonderful variety of wonderful music and read poetry, which was really fun. Kaila visted! I like her a lot.

After that, Eric and I decided to go to Starbucks, and while climbing over a snow bank I found five dollars. Because our drinks and cupcakes came to 4.81 I made a profit. Yes.

Wait.

We got some thing for free. The cup cakes alone were at least 4 dollars. Thanks barista who I know from the past (I think it's spelled Razi)! You are the greatest ever!

-Charlotte

P.S We also picked up Eric's dog on the side of the road and talked about taking a road trip (not seriously).

P.S.S I like friendship.

I feel so good right now.

2007-03-11T18:51:37Z

Ok, so on Friday I might have chopped of most of my hair with dull scissors and after blotchily dieing it kind of red kid of pink.
It's uneven and the color varied from COLOR! to still dark brown. Not the smartest thing I've ever done. By a long shot. But! I don't really care because, after all it's just hair. It grows back in new and exciting ways. My mother was pretty pissed (I did it with out consent, pretty late at night) but, I am grateful to any and all higher powers to say, they are getting used to it and there is peace. Peeaaace.

I saw 300 yesterday with Reid and Soup. It was very7, very entertaining. Also strangely empowering. I now have a newfound desire to sculpt my body it to awesome firmness and KICK MAJOR ASS and um... kicking major ass. Also stabbing the guy who calls you a total slut was pretty girl power. The whole theater applauded. Which made it better.

Driving there, I swear I was a (large and in charge) cow statue in a set of someone’s windows. The night was filled with much hilarity, and a chance meeting with Caroline, and a sudden switch from Spartans to the notebook. It was a beautiful night, but too much to recount.

In the news of today and school, I plan to bring up that our book never goes over what this great, ominous evil of communism is and teaching at least the basics of it would be a great benefit to or learning experience AND I love my English essay so far, though I’m probably going to get a bad grade. I DONT CARE! I like it that's (what I keep telling myself) what's important. Also, I shot my first roll of film (!!!!) I can't wait to see my pictures. I think most of them won't come out. But as long as I get one, I'm happy. I also have great ideas for some class free rayographs.

The end!

Charlotte

(Did I mention that I'm feeling better than I have in a long time?)

FEBRUARY OVER

2007-03-01T00:30:27Z

IT'S THE LAST DAY OF FEBUARY! YES!

Dear February,
You are the worst month ever. Not just this year. Nope. Always. You basically suck. I mean that. Worst month ever. I mean, the weather sucks, tons of people getting sick, there is suffocating angst over Valentine's Day EVERYWHERE... and the weather is terrible. I am glad you are over.
-Charlotte

Dear Sick,
You cost me my job, really fucked me over in school, and have prevented me from going to the gym for over a month now. I would like it if you would just get out of my life, already and let me get healthy again.
Thanks,
Charlotte

Dear March,
I'm pretty glad it's going to be a new month tomorrow. I'm really trying to get my life back on track. I'm GOING TO GET ALL OF MY WORK DONE! Even if that means loosing large amounts of sleep. I straightened out my papers and I'm feeling a bit more confident that I can get back on track after talking to my counselor. It turns out that they are very helpful. I recommend them. I have decided not to go to traditional college. I know for a fact I would be miserable, and would drop out within a year. I've decided to pursue the culinary arts instead by attending a culinary institute, majoring, of course, in cooking, as well as restaurant management. I might go into pastry.... but I don't know. Cooking is just the kind of work I can actually see myself doing with out getting fired quickly / killing myself. I really angry at my school's attitude towards choosing vocational paths. It would be really stupid for me as an individual to go to a regular college, and not because I'm stupid. At all. Boo. What ever. Getting this school thing to work at all for the rest of the year is going to be really hard on me. In more ways than one. What a mess. I'm kind of getting off to a... decent start. Sort of. I'm set for PCR day any way.

My other new month resolution is to get healthy. I'm Just going to take care of myself better.

Common Ground's today was super good. It was just awesome. Truly. To the core. We planned or presentation on preventing anti-lgtb language and violence. We were all so productive. It's going to be great. Really. I'm a little nervous about getting up in front of not only my teachers but... all of them and talking about "the gay." It really is hard to stand up and push for change, but I'll have Katherine and Echo with me, so it's all cool.

Please be gentle with me, March.

-Charlotte

March Resolutions

2007-02-27T00:12:36Z

Plot Summery: Dear friends, I am a horrible student with a serious problem with doing school-type work. I am terribly disorganized and scatter brained. I have been sick for nearly a month.

***

Ok so my March Resolutions include BEHEALTHY! and FIXSCHOOL!

As these are the two biggest (shut up you guys, I don't care that I've gained weight) problems.

THE INTERNET is really preventing me from getting a good head start on either of these goals.

Home didn’t used to suck this bad. I figured out that the reason my homework completion is so spotty is because I'm actually some how incapable of sitting down and doing it any more. I am at this point saying FUCK YOU MATH! Even though it's only been like ten minutes because my health has prevented me from going to all of the classes it covers. I can do parts of it, but as for finishing the problem to the sheets criteria... well I’m pretty much fucked. I am learning math with my teacher 6th tomorrow. I now have all of Canterbury tales to read (I was being sick through all of that reading time and, no, I couldn't have read it at home. I was diiieeeeinng.)

Did you know that PRC day is Thursday and I haven't received a course book yet (again, sick.)?

I also have to do reading for my new Books to Movies class and make up like 4 tests and a paper. GOD DAMNIT!

Grarg.

I also still feel crappy, and don’t want to do anything, which is a problem because I have a lot of work to do.

I also I need a workspace with less distraction and more clean. Balls. I should stop going to lunch for a while... and keep skipping gym. For a while. At least. Jeeze. Jeeze!

On a more positive note, I went to tacos and prayer group. Both were nice.

Charlotte

breaking up.

2007-02-21T06:03:42Z

Being on vacation is super cool. I'm liking it. I have done cool things. Not today, though. I just slept and felt kind of sick BUT IT"S COOL BECAUSE THERE WAS A NEW (ly uploaded) EPISODE OF JEEVES AND WOOSTER ON THE YOUTUBE!

Yaaaay

I'm looking forward to Kait's birthday gathering. I bet it will be super cool.

Too bad This American Life tickets cost more than $100.

end pointless entry

Talk about the life styles of the rich and the... really rich.

2007-02-20T06:15:40Z

Wouldn't it be nice to have that?

Wouldn't it be nice to have that be THE CENTER OF YOUR HOUSE AND BLOOMING ALL YEAR ROUND?
Not to mention the room on the top of those stairs is full of amazing art by little artists, like, say, REMBRANDT AND VERMEER?! WHAT!? Not to mention that portrait of yourself by John Singer Sargent. And stepping into the hall next to the room you are currently chilling in to see some Botochelli hanging around in there.

Seriously. Wow. Isabella had a pretty sick pad. Being surrounded by all of that art and general wonderfulness.

(Not to mention all that basement space for your lions.)

You should all check out the Gardner Museum. The courtyard is really refreshing. It feels like spring/early summer in there. Not to mention every inch of that place is pretty gorgeous.

Our Hopes and Expectations

2007-02-20T03:33:58Z

In middle school (aka I Hate Everything) I really looked down on this one girl who really just wanted to get married and have kids. When ever she started going through her baby names I would roll my eyes and talk sarcastically with my friends (which I totally had. Kind of.) about the joys of married life and seriously about how lame it was to be a housewife. Who would just want to stay home and go grocery shopping with the baby, right?

Now, after a relatively short time, I really, really would love to be married to some wealthy dude who supported me while I decorated the house, cooked meals and raised a kid. Seriously. Awesome.

To bad I'm a hopeless romantic and not really trophy wife material. The chance of me falling madly in love with a rich man who is also in love with me are very slim... and if I'm going to start any kind of major commitment, I better be pretty fucking in love.

I went to the Isabella Stewart Gardener Museum today. It really brought the fact that I want a life with everything pretty and just so into really, really sharp focus. I consider myself pretty plain, and I think that feeds into my desire to be surrounded by pretty things. I would love to own a teahouse furnished with various antiques and pretty flatware and teacups. Prepare meals based around a certain element, match the music, the tableware the light... everything. It would be wonderful to have an oasis like that. You know all the hipsters would go. I would also like to have a neatly uniformed wait-staff.

Sigh~ It could have nice plants, too.

I've basically decided to pursue a career in the culinary arts. I can't really see myself doing anything else. I don't need to be a chef. I just would like to work in the kitchen. Or something. Siiiigh.

In the end though, I don't actually want to work. It's horrible, but I'm just not built that way. Ah.

WALL OF GOOD AH

2007-02-17T04:08:34Z

I'm so glad it's break.

HOMG I AM SO GLAD IT IS BREAK!

Srsly guys lol.

It feels good. It does. Yes. Over.

My old radio show ended, BUT I signed up for a new one con mi amigo, Enrico. It seems like it's going to be a lot of fun. DO YOU WANT TO BE ON MY RAIDO SHOW!? That would be pretty cool and could be done by showing up at the school's station Tuesday at 2:30. If you brought music that would be even cooler.

Speaking of Eric, he made the most amazing thing in a tortilla ev-ar. Yarly. I love stupid abreviations of things. Yes!

AND SPEAKING OF MUSIC! I won an ipod mini on eBay for $60. It was used, but the batter was replaced in December ('06, even) and it can't be worse than the one I got from Eric a while back. The one that died. I'm pretty happy. I've also bee weeding out the stuff I don't listen to from my library. I'm tired of having it set on random and hearing something I just don't like. So. Yeah.

I got to go out to coffee with Echo yesterday. It made me smile. Also, I have some rad plans for this lovely week off. Yes!

-Charlotte

PS: I'm going to apply at the bakery. Maybe Star Bucks if dad (he drives) will let me. That's it. Maybe the Bank. I don't know. Ahhhhh I just want a job again!

P.S.S I took joy in watching House and Ugly Betty this week.

lightning_tooth @ 2007-02-14T20:57:00

2007-02-15T02:13:58Z

" 'Weet! weet! weet! twittered the green Linnets, 'the old Earth is dead, and they have laid her out in her white shroud.'
'The Earth is going to be married, and this is her bridal dress,' whispered the Turtle-doves to each other. Their little pink feet were quite frost-bitten, but they felt that it was their duty to take a romantic view of the situation.
'Nonsense!' growled the Wolf. 'I tell you that it is all the fault of the Government, and if you don't believe me I shall eat you.' The Wolf had a thoroughly practical mind, and was never at a loss for a good argument.
'Well, for my own part, said the Woodpecker, who was a born philosopher, 'I don't care an atomic theory for explanations. If a thing is so, it is so, and at present it is terribly cold.' "
-"The Star-Child," Oscar Wilde

lightning_tooth @ 2007-02-13T17:24:00

2007-02-13T22:25:50Z

Today I threw up, felt alinated and lost my job WHILE loosing all will to keep struggling forward. Great.

Doing stuff?

2007-02-12T00:36:47Z

I FINISHED MY UGLY BETTY MOODSET, YOU GUYS!

Mostly. Pretty much.

It occurs to me that this was a phenomenal waste of my my time but... Well, what else was I doing with it? I'm happy.

It's actually the only "custom" thing I'm done for myspace/facebook/livejournal. It's like it's opening a new, nerdier chapter of my life. Good god.
Also, my icon is the cuteness.

ON THE SUBEC OF FINISHING THINGS!

I finished making my Valentine things. I am pleased. They are cute enough.

I also discovered I can't do anything cardio vascular for more than a minute with out having a coughing fit. I guess I'll have to start lifting weights instead.

Or something.

The End.

Charlotte

butts.

2007-02-11T19:01:16Z

I'm feeling all lame and boring. I need to start, you know, doing things again.
I know, I'll go to the gym!

...or something.

-Charlotte

Oh Wait! Don't end that yet!

I saw the Musical yesterday!
It was adorable. Very, very sweet.
I was super proud of the peopleI know who were in it.
You all looked so cute and were wonderful. I love you. A whole lot.

Whaaaaaaat

2007-02-10T04:25:23Z

Did you know that Blink-182 covered Freak Scene by Dinosaur Jr? God. That just ruffles my feathers.
Jeeze.

Jeeze.

(It ruffles them so because I really like that song and I HATE Blink-182)

Anyway, I have been making an ugly better mood set. Yum. I still needs a lot of making but, it's already pretty great. I just learned that if you dont type in the size, it doesn't show up and delets all the codes you entered. So I've almost had to start over.

TALKTALKTALK

2007-02-09T23:41:08Z

So basically my doctor shoved a wire q-tip through my nose and into the back of my throat. She's checking for a disease we're pretty sure I don't have. IF I do have it, and you go to school with me... um you probably kind of have it, too. Srryguyzanyway....

WOOOOOOOOOOEEWWW! WIERDEST FEELING EVER!

I also had to miss my radio show yesterday for the orthodontist and had to go back because they forgot to put those little bands on them. They took an hour on something that should have taken 10 minutes and then forgot that... jeeze. It resulted in a lot pain all up in my grill. Mwaaaahhhahhahaaaow.
I also had to talk about my lithium monitor.

Today was doctor day! Yay! I missed school entirely again, which made me pretty sad actually, BUT I got to go have Japanese for lunch, which was a win. It tastes so clean.

I decided I'm not feeling up to the music tonight. I WILL SEE IT THOUGH!
...But I just want to eat ice cream and write in my live journal. For real.

NO MORE TALKING ABOUT MY DAY! SO ANYWAY!

Well anyway, VALENTINES DAY OH MAN! is almost here. I kind of love Valentine's Day... and I also kind of hate it. On one hand, it's such a nice Idea and I REALLY like giving people little things all over the place. I was going bake this year, but after this whole sick thing came up I'm wary of making any kind of food for people. I don't want to get my darling friends sick. I like them a lot. I'll think of something!
All of the people being romantic an all of the television pressuring people to by diamonds makes me deeply uncomfortable. Oh well. Caroline can have a single party or something. It will be the greatest.

On THAT note, I've been thinking and I really don't like the idea of dating. Well, at least in the form in which it appears around me. I don't know. It kind of sucks. I have not liked the relationships I've been in, including the once I managed to get to work with some kind of normalcy (no violent chemical imbalances / family disasters leading to crippling lack of motivation/willingness to do anything/desire for intimacy of any kind). I don't want a boyfriend or a girlfriend for that matter.
After MUCH pondering I decided that I really like the idea of having intimate friendships with people. The definition I am using for this phrase is "any relationship involving squishy feelings, holding hands and no real commitment of any sort." Actually the commitment part is optional. I just don’t like the idea of being in "a relationship." I just kind of want to have a mutual feeling with a person, and maybe so cuddling. In theory you could have a lot of these, and the idea of have any amount of "more than friendships" with people is lovely. I hope that made sense to some one...
I like to think that’s the kind of relationship Oscar Wilde had with his wife Constance (aside from that having babies bit), but that's probably not very scholarly of me.
I know FOR A FACT it's the kind of relationship I want with THIS MAN OH MY GOD:

(Stephen Fry circa 1989)
This is whom charlotte gets a celebrity crush on. Forget young pretty boys. I like the old, chubby, British homosexuals. YES! OH MY GOD! I still think he's beautiful now that he's 49. I just love his face. And his personality. He makes me crazy. I want to have an intimate friendship with him.
annnnnnnd Barak Obama, after much deliberation Kaila and I decided he was every liberal's wet dream. He's so great.
...But will he be president?
I don't know, I don't think he will be yet... but some day? FO'SHO'! He has my vote, no matter what. I love him. I love him like I love Bill Clinton and JFK.

THE END

Charlotte
(Ps. I like Hillary a lot, too.)

OK YOU GUYS HERE WE GO

2007-02-07T23:09:26Z

I've been sick for... 8? 9? days now. 4 of those days have been school days so that means... I AM SO FUCKING BEHIND OH MY GOD!!! AH AH AH DANGER!

But you know what I never do my homework anyway, so chances are this wont make any kind of difference. Nope. Nope.

I really do need to go to school tomorrow though. Really, really need to do that. As far al I can tell
I have managed only to miss review in math so.... I can get back on the wagon pretty easily. We don't do anything in History, Math... happens, Spanish is super easy to catch up in (I love Spanish) and well, we don't really do anything I can't figure out myself in English (and I usually end up figuring everything out by myself in English, anyway.)

So yeah basically I'm ready to go back to school.... except I'm still having these really fierce fits on coughing randomly... which could be a problem. I hope it goes away tonight... because I'm pretty sick of being sick. I HAVE BEEN SICK FOR A LONG TIME GOD DAMNIT!

Anyway that was kind of pointless, but I'm posting it anyway. I mean, everyone is doing it.

AW BALLS! I missed the play auditions. Sorry, Eric.

-Charlotte

P.S Echo is the coolest thing to happen ever. I like that girl.

Ok so...

2007-02-06T18:10:26Z

I've been trying to fill out surveys to break the boredom over thepast couple of days... but I alls and up deleting it halfway through. My life is boring to me, so I doubt it will be super fun for anyone to scroll through it on their friends page.

On that note, I don't think I write in this thing for other people, I just kind of do it to endulge myself in... self. So it shouldn't matter if my posts are interesting?

Anyway I was thinking about it and you know those times when some one is humming a song and your like "Hey, I know that song!" and then you talk to some one you don't really know for 30 minutes? Thoose are the best times.

The end.

Charlotte

Hey did you pick up the globe today?

2007-02-05T00:37:15Z

Because there was a giant fucking bunny in it.

over and out,

Charlotte

Adolf Elizabeth Hitler

2007-01-27T06:00:09Z

I don't think I've ever been rendered compleately speechless by a boy who says so little

In all seriousness, I have no idea what to do with myself around this person. It's horrifying. If they are in a room with me brain function is reduced to "ffffbuh?!"

If freaks me out but it's also pretty cool.

TOO BAD I CAN'T SAY ANYTHING BESIDES "HI" TO HIM LOL
I went out to lunch with Eric for the last time. Cry!

THE END CHARLOTTE

P.S. Jeeves and Wooster is such a good show to watch. Stephen Fry does cute things with his mouth. Yay!

This is why I have no friends.